Hakuna Matata

so i know noone is going to read this since i have no followers. even the one follower i have (josh) probably wont read it either but sometimes its nice to get things off my chest.

I have been feeling very nostalgic lately. I found all my old Love Me Electric shirts. and i found all my demo cds from them. and it just takes me back to a happier time. even though back then i was always super depressed because i had noone to call my own, i was still living my life with no responsibility. i came and went as i pleased. i had a job and all my money went to beer & shows. shows, they were my life. when i think back i probably went to hundreds of shows. but even then i always felt like the odd girl out. like people only talked to me because they felt sorry for me. especially the guys in love me electric. but whatevs you know, im over it. i went to see hit the lights not to long ago and Mr. Nick Thompson himself remembered me even though i hadnt seen him in like 3 years. It’s that kind of shit that makes me smile. I always wanted the guys in the bands to become my friends. Most of them knew of me but that was always about it. I was never pretty enough to be the cool girl everyone wanted to hang out with. But they sure as hell are missing out on one of the best friends they could ever have. Their loss.

Music has always been such a huge part of my life. I love that i can put an old CD in and those songs will bring back memories of shows and friends and happiness. Music also brought me my bestest friend. I’ve been following him around for as long as i can remember because i completely fell in love with his voice. he’s also pretty fuckin handsome too. but if not for my love of music and if not for his ability to be non-judgemental i wouldnt have him for a friend. even though hes now playing guitar for the audition and i dont get to hear his voice as often, i know hes always a text or call away. the way a good friend should be. i love him.

i guess thats it. i miss my life. but when my bella runs up to me and tells me how much she loves me, it makes me appreciate the life i have now. im lucky.

idk how this shit works. i feel like an old lady trying to figure it out. i use to beast at blogs and junk. now im just confused. i might just give up.

tryin to figure this shit outttt.